Embracing the Pain

The beginning of many experiences on the journey leading to spiritual, emotional, and mental peace begin with emotional pain. Once the pain and suffering becomes uncomfortable or intolerable enough, we will start to seek relief and help. By the time the severity of our discomfort is acknowledged and help is sought, the pain many experience has been ruminating in our spirit and effecting our physical health, social relationships, and emotional and mental health.

If you have found yourself seeking help after your drug and alcohol consumption have caused you enough strife to admit you suffer without an outside substance; you have found your depression and anxiety has begun effecting your life to a point of seeking relief; or have found your compulsive thinking has begun to effect you sexually, socially, and often financially, and in spite of all solutions tried thus far you still find yourself suffering, do not be discouraged. Your seemingly incurable pain and suffering may just be the signs needed to begin the journey to your spiritual experience. A Spiritual Solution is the only answer to our Spiritual Suffering.

Do not be discouraged for many of us living today in the light of peace and security know this pain and hopelessness was the beginning of facing and identifying our underlying fears allowing us to understand our underlying hurt, pain, and frustration that effects our ability to live fully and completely at peace from the inside out – no matter what.

Many of us need help, guidance, and proof it worked for another in order to have hope that they too can be changed. So if this is you, email for our Zoom meeting information and find a meeting that is right for you.

I know a guy who has lived a spiritually awakened life for 40 years who speaks of “a little guy on his shoulder.” That guy on his shoulder others call a voice in their head, their conscience, their thoughts, their “stinking thinking” and other names for what can be our greatest enemy and our greatest power. The silent enemy can be the most deadly which is why those suffering greatly enough to seek help, are in a better off position as they may have a chance to experience a freedom that some will never know they are missing out on. Some do not believe the freedom of Recovery exist and even more sad for my spirit, some do not believe it will work for them. It can and will work for you if sought! This is a truth that millions have experienced work and I hope if you are suffering in any way you too seek a spiritual experience to solve all of your fears and suffering. We will help you for Free so do not let that stop you!!!!

“Learning to name our fears and understanding the underlying pain and hurt and frustration that cause us to shun away from living fully and completely is our aim. Seeing the many faces of fear and not denying or suppressing them is the healthiest way to change our…” — drop the rock.

~Hollywood and Vine Recovery Center

Dr. Montgomery saving the lives of addicts suffering during COVID-19

Printed and Posted with the permission and approval of Dr. Gloria Montgomery, a recovered alcoholic.

“You are not an alcoholic or an addict! You may be still suffering from the disease of alcoholism or addiction, but YOU ARE NOT A DISEASE!” – Dr. Montgomery

Dr. Gloria Montgomery, a licensed psychologist and recovered alcoholic with 62+ years of recovery today, often has to begin helping sufferers (in sobriety and those still suffering in the physical addiction of the disease) mentally separate their spiritual being from the disease afflicting their spirits. This acceptance is the first step to believing in and accepting the solution of Recovery. Today, the fear of change along with financial and economic insecurity is overwhelming and many spirits are suffering and feel forgotten, but there is a solution! Surrendering to a Power that allows us to follow divine and intuitive direction is the answer to ALL OF OUR PROBLEMS. An answer many are seeking during the current state of the world including those suffering with addiction, depression, anxiety, fear, financial terror, grief…we can increase the list ad infinitum.

Dr. Montgomery to the suffering: “If you are allergic to strawberries you don’t go around telling people that you are a strawberry, do you?”

“If you have lung cancer do you go around saying, ‘Hi my name is ________ and I am cancer?’ Well why are you going around talking about you’re an alcoholic?”

“How can you be a disease? You may be suffering from a disease or afflictions from a disease but you, my friend, are NOT your disease!”

Many have to identify as their disease in their fellowship meetings or they will not be accepted but for many out there the journey to spiritual elation, also known as Recovery, begins with the letting go of the shame, guilt, and responsibility for a disease that we are Powerless over. Followed by the acceptance of our spiritual malady (that is insanity) and coming to accept restoration of our spirit is possible with divine help – as we come to believe in the Recovery of those around us. [Hollywood & Vine has virtual Recovery groups as well as individual help so please begin with an email if you need help. This is not a sober fellowship, we have gone much further than abstaining from our addictions – we have recovered and been given the solution to our suffering – no matter what! hollywoodandvinerecovery@gmail.com]

The responsibility of annihilating casualties in life as a result of the disease of addiction and insanity that plagues the sufferer, may be the shame, guilt, and responsibility that so many hold on to every time they affirm they are and always will be this disease. Sentenced to spending a lifetime “working” at the doomed mind and using tools to correct our intuition, staying busy as to never to trust our thinking again.

For those suffering, below are some clips of the Alcoholics Anonymous “Big Book” text that tells us we are not sentenced to a lifetime of alcoholic thinking and emotions. If drugs and alcohol are the sufferer’s problem then abstinence would be the solution. For most that simply is not enough. If those knew how an addict suffered spiritually (mind, body, and soul) they too would need a drink or a drug to feel peace. Seek Recovery – it is the solution – and hold on to the light when it get’s dark. You will be amazed before you are halfway through.

In the Forward (pictured above) when referring to Alcoholism the book states:

 “All have Recovered. They have solved the drink problem.”

“But the ex-alcoholic who has found this solution…”

The words have been read many times, “To show other alcoholics PRECISELY HOW WE HAVE RECOVERED is the main purpose of this book.” Why are so few people Recovering? and why is it so controversial in “recovery meetings” if you do?

Why does the fear of relapse encourage others to warn the recovered against following God’s direction?

Why do some not have a drink for 30 years but still are an alcoholic doomed never to recover? Why do some reject Recovery as described in the program?

Dr. Montgomery describes what has become of many AA and 12-step fellowships (not all) as becoming:

“… like a jail with open doors and guards saying to the prisoners, ‘YOU’RE FREE.’ With the alcoholic response of, ‘No, I think I will stay a while. You just don’t know how bad I had it and how bad I was…I will always be an alcoholic.’ ” 

“The guard responds with, ‘You are free, there is a solution and people are recovering becoming ex-problem drinkers and ex-alcoholics all over the world. Read this book and see. You were not responsible for your disease and have been set free.’

And the prisoner (with the jail doors wide open) tells the guard, ‘There is no cure. You don’t understand I am going to die an alcoholic. I will be one for the rest of my life.'”

That is an analogy that can bring a chuckle through the tears that may fall when beginning to accept the long awaited freedom from a life-long sentence of suffering.

The text AA members follow in recovery goes on to discuss how they are suggested to identify which does not say as a disease.

“…designating himself instead as a Member of Alcoholics Anonymous.”

Recovery is real. Below are just a few of the many places throughout the book of Alcoholics Anonymous promising the freedom of Recovery from a disease which those suffering from are Powerless over and often succumb to.

This is what the fellowship and program used to be. Over the many decades changes have been accepted and spread exponentially, many are still suffering. You are not alone and you too can Recover when you are ready. You may never feel ready so may as well give it a shot today 🙂

~Hollywood and Vine Recovery Center~

AA meetings directly contradict the text and Truth of the program of Alcoholics Anonymous

There is a program out there, gifted to those afflicted with the disease of alcoholism, that is the answer to ALL of our spiritual suffering. One of the founders of this program, Bill W., had a spiritual experience and was then divinely directed to write the book-titled Alcoholics Anonymous-which has gone on to help so many recover. According to the founders of the program, those of us gifted with recovery are responsible to be there for all of those suffering-especially Alcoholics. One of the many direct contradictions newcomers to our program are experiencing….are there are not many recovered members or ex-problem drinkers left! Only those that can tell you exactly how to manage your physical sobriety with directions that did not come from the “God-consciousness within.” Directions like 90 meetings in 90 days, getting commitments, take a spot check inventory…anything and everything other than the program of Recovery as laid out in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous. Over the years, changes were approved to bring us even further from Recovery which is why I am so grateful, for the original text and foundation of the program.

This program of Recovery has been condensed down and outright overlooked. To quote Dr. Montgomery “People are joining the fellowship of AA and not surrendering to the Program of Alcoholics Anonymous.” Dr. Montgomery has a recovery date today that goes back over 62 years and having had the privilege of attending meetings and working with many of the 12-step recovery founding fathers, Dr. Montgomery continues to spread Recovery through the members of Hollywood and Vine Recovery Center.

One of the things I found hard to overcome was this feeling deep within my innermost self every time I had to identify as an alcoholic even after years of sobriety. You know how people do positive incantations and speak into the positive what they want…positive energy right? At meetings you have to say several times that you are an alcoholic, you have to identify your entire being as the disease that you are suffering from and never transition to verbalizing recovery. To go even further, those of us that have been gifted recovery as stated in the book are met with pitchforks at local southern California aa meetings if we do not say several times that we are alcoholic…told that we must never forget where we came from! What is that and where does that come from?! We are told to ignore what God has done and is doing for us and identify as the disease that is in remission. What fellowship are the newcomers supposed to be attracted to?

I did not know how much it was effecting me until I was brought on my knees in sobriety to the Hollywood and Vine Recovery Center’s founder looking for any relief from my suffering. I was sick and tired of working my program so hard I was exhausted.

One of the first eye openers was Dr. Montgomery notifying me that Bill W. (one of the founders of 12-step recovery) wrote a letter to central office of Alcoholics Anymous asking why people were starting to identify as alcoholics. He went on to state that this disease we are afflicted with does not define who we are and we are to accept the gift of recovery for those of us who had been granted such a gift.

This is a picture of the Foreward to the first edition…which in many ways is the same as the current Forewards being printed.

It was refreshing, I was not the disease that I suffered from more than I was the recovered mind and body that one day at a time I am gifted

It was refreshing, I was not the disease that I suffered from more than I was the recovered mind and body that one day at a time I am gifted. It is okay to accept the recovery that is promised in these pages and to speak the truth when talking about your disease and this was so freeing for me. 

I urge those who have had the spiritual experience brought on as a result of the 12 steps and that live the life of recovery as promised in the Alcoholics Anonymous book, identify in their recovery at meetings or at least as it states in the book with regards to identifying as “…a member of alcoholics anonymous”. Everywhere you go speak the truth of what God as done for you in your life rather than the disease you suffered from. You may want to go even further and look into exactly what recovery is defined as in the book and ask yourself if you are in fact, Recovered.

At least question whether you are suffering from the disease of addiction, afflicted with the disease of addiction…but you are not the disease of addiction! You are your recovery, and for that you are responsible!

Thus, Bill W. was speaking from the same spiritual place that created this spiritual program when he wrote the letter requesting we stop identifying as alcoholics, we do not have to remind ourselves of our disease every time we open our mouths to speak in a room of Alcoholics Anonymous. If that is your group conscience I hope you speak the truth of what God has done in your life more than you remind others of the disease that is or can be arrested as a result of a spiritual experience. 

Alcoholics are not the only people who take life one day at a time as that is all any of us have-we live in the Eternal Now. 

I hope if you find your spirit suffering you seek a spiritual remedy. I have personally experienced this spiritual program remove the suffering of suicidal adolescents, what some have considered outright mental defects, emotionally disturbed individuals, and mostly have seen many sober alcoholics as of recent surrender to recovery before succumbing to relapse. You do not have to find a spiritual solution….simply seek. You may find yourself on the journey the 12 steps will guide you on, a journey to a new freedom and self actualization most will never know. 

With love and light

A member of Alcoholics Anonymous

Mental Health, Alcoholism, and Addiction Solutions while #AloneTogether

If Social Media is a tool of yours, keep ot positive and know you are safe to surrender to a new freedom. Join a movement with those of us who are #recovered :). If you are looking to free your spirit from the pain and suffering triggering addictions, sick of medicating a pain you still seek relief from, and all of the fears and discomforts you have as of yet to solve. You are not alone while we #stayhome. Email hollywoodandvinerecovery@gmail.com for help.

Mental Health, Alcoholism, and Addiction amid the Corona Virus.

What to do as your cravings, emotions, and triggers come to a head?

Surrender. That is the beginning. A willingness most have never before been able to muster to absolutely let go. For those of us suffering from physical addiction (alcoholism, drug addiction, gambling addiction, sexual addiction, eating disorders and food addiction, and more) as well as many mental and emotional disorders-recovery is possible, there is a Solution. You are not alone! During this Covid-19 Pandemic many of you have been given an opportunity to have your delusions of control taken from you and the beauty of it all is there is one who has all Power that is waiting to heal all of your suffering. Financial insecurity has been brought to the surface, our reliance on our therapists, 12-step meetings, whatever peace we thought we had may not be holding up as sh*t hits the fan. We get it.

“An illness of this sort…involves those about us in a way no other human sickness can. If a person has cancer all are sorry for him and no one is angry or hurt. But not so with the alcoholic illness, for with it there goes annihilation of all things worth while in life. It engulfs all whose lives touch the sufferer’s. It brings misunderstanding, fierce resentment, financial insecurity, disgusted friends and employers, warped lives of blameless children, sad wives and parents-anyone can increase the list.” (Taken from the original printing of the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous-Chapter 2, There is a Solution)

There is so much silent suffering, guilt, shame, fear, hopelessness, and resentment associated with the disease of addiction which goes far beyond the physical allergy to a substance. In the 12-step program of Recovery alcohol or the substance being abused is only mentioned in the first half of the first step. The other 11.5 steps deal with the emotional and mental disease and emotional disorders that we are just as powerless over. Those of us living in the light of our Recovery are here to help you understand and surrender to being completely Powerless over your disease and there is no amount knowledge, science, medication, or therapy, that can remove from you your suffering. Always remember there is a Solution.

In order to determine whether or not a person is suffering pathologically (relating to emotional, physical, and mental disease), we must answer for ourselves once and for all these three puzzling questions –

  1. What is the disease of addiction and what is a spiritual malady?

   2. Who is an afflicted with the disease of addiction and a spiritual malady?

   3. Am I suffering in and with the disease of addiction or a spiritual malady*?

To get the right answer the prospective member must start this course of direction with:

  1. A willingness to learn and experience their truth.
  2. An open mind. Forget any and all ideas or notions we already have been taught and are holding on to. We must set our opinions aside.
  3. Complete honesty. It is possible – not at all probable-that we may fool somebody else. But we MUST be honest with ourselves, and it is a good time to start being honest with another recovered being.

The 12-steps of Alcoholics Anonymous, spiritual in nature, will cure the suffering of ALL of our afflictions which is why one of the programs founder Bill W. gave the charge to all of us gifted with recovery- that for all those suffering he wanted the hands of AA to be there, especially alcoholics- not only alcoholics. Many changes have occurred within the program that has unfortunately brought a beautiful program to needing to be “sobered up” as Dr. Gloria M. , founder of our Recovery Center with over 62 years of Recovery so appropriately puts it. No matter who you are or why you hurt, if all other methods have failed and you’re ready to be open minded to receiving this spiritual gift, then you are ready. Let go of all ideas, methods, and directions you have been given and be willing to accept divine direction from within. Consider the answers to the following questions:

  1. Do you or have you ever required a drink or outside source of fulfillment in the morning?
  2. Are you uncomfortable when you are alone?
  3. Do you lose time from fulfilling personal goals and responsibilities due to drinking, worrying, fear, or other emotions?
  4. Is your suffering and/or drinking harming those you love in any way?
  5. Is there a definite time daily that you crave relief?
  6. Do you get the inner shakes (restless, irritable, and discontent) unless you get a drink or another form of relief such as a meeting, direction from a sponsor, the next bit of good news, therapy session, or any outside source of fulfillment to ease your suffering?
  7. Has drinking or your emotional and mental afflictions made you irritable?
  8. Has your suffering with your emotions, addictions, fears and mental state of mind made you careless of your family’s welfare?
  9. Have you harmed or neglected loved ones while suffering with your afflictions?
  10. Have your afflictions changed your personality?
  11. Does your afflictions cause you bodily complaints or have negative physical effects?
  12. Are you restless?
  13. Do you have difficulty sleeping?
  14. Have you become more impulsive?
  15. Have you experienced less self-control?
  16. Has your initiative decreased?
  17. Has your ambition decreased?
  18. Have you lost/ or lack perseverance with achieving a goal?
  19. Do you need outside assistance with obtaining social ease?
  20. Do you suffer with feelings of inferiority? Do you use alcohol or an outside substance for self-encouragement?
  21. Do you suffer from feelings of inadequacy?
  22. Has your sexual potency suffered?
  23. Have you shown noticeable dislikes and hatred for things as your suffering continues?
  24. Has your jealousy increased?
  25. Have you experienced noticeable moodiness as a result of your suffering?
  26. Have you experienced a decrease in your efficiency?
  27. Have you become more sensitive?
  28. Have you noticed yourself to be harder to get along with?
  29. Do you notice yourself in environments inferior to your morals and standards?
  30. Is your suffering endangering your health?\
  31. Is your suffering effecting your peace of mind?
  32. Is your suffering making your home life unhappy?
  33. Is your suffering jeopardizing your business or finances?
  34. Is your suffering clouding your reputation?
  35. Is your suffering disturbing the harmony of your life?

Note: The foregoing Test Questions were a guide used by John Hopkins University Hospital in deciding whether a patient is alcoholic and in need of the 12 Steps of Recovery.

What can our spiritual suffering look like?  

  1. Needing to escape from situations of life which one cannot face.
  2. Covering up feelings of a maladjusted personality (including sexual maladjustment).
  3. Developing from social drinking and using to pathological drinking and using.
  4. A symptom of a major abnormal mental state.
  5. A need to escape from a seemingly incurable pain.
  6. Hopelessness and feelings of incurable depression, self-hatred, regret, remorse, or the like.
  7. Experiencing a certain vague restlessness that comes from the friction between your biological and emotional make-up and the ordinary strains and demands of life we give power to.

If, after carefully considering the foregoing with myself or another recovered member of our fellowship, we can fully concede to our innermost selves we are either suffering from the disease of alcoholism/addiction, or we are suffering from a spiritual malady which is the root of our pain and discomfort- then you may be ready to surrender and begin your journey to recovery.

  We ADMIT to our innermost selves that once a person finds themselves living in their powerlessness over their emotions, their finances, their deep and nagging spiritual misery and suffering inside then – from that point on, we are limited to two alternatives:

  1. Total surrender to belief in accepting spiritual help.

OR

2. Chronic suffering with all of the handicaps and penalties it implies. In other words – we have gone past the point where we HAD A CHOICE.

All we have left is a DECISION to make.

After admitting to ourselves that all other methods have not relieved our suffering, not the financial success, meetings, rehabs, detox, self help books, meditation, religion, all of our “working” the 12-steps, and whatever else we have tried has not helped the suffering we find ourselves in.

WE RESOLVE TO AKNOWLEDGE THERE IS A PROBLEM AND TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.

Ask for help: hollywoodandvinerecovery@gmail.com